Moving On

Since the start of my Teenage, I have been suffering from a troublesome state of mind. I feel like as if I have grown more than my age. Sometimes I consider it as a sign of maturity but sometimes it feels like drowning into the dungeons beneath the oceans. I never ever wanted to be an introvert but here I am, lost in my own selves. This only ‘I’ in my life seems to have taken away all my joys. I literally have to push my inner soul to accept the things around me. My family knows this situation of mine, but their conversations with me to solve this issue has been of no use so far. Right now I am sitting in front of my laptop, want to express my heart out; the battles I have been doing with my ego and with my ‘I’.

 

I seriously don’t want to blame the Education systems but yet I do blame this Materialistic approach of the society for this. It has been making me and I don’t know how many people like me to race for it. The pressure of elders and their fantasies seeing us wealthy (so called successful nowadays) is where your trouble begins. This modern day comparisons is injecting in us very negative ambitions to race for your own, neglect others and show off others with your A grade results, your cars, your lifestyles, your foods and all the worldly stuffs you can compete others with. The aspiration to win this race has seriously affected me, my thinking, my soul and my aims in life. I am literally standing at an abyss where at one side there is a darkness and on the other side a mentally disturbing race to win (in order to be successful in the sight of many).

 

So now, after hundreds of times of overthinking and battling with my own ego, I have reached to a conclusion to nip this problem in the bud. I am so apologetic to myself and to the whole world whatsoever they think. I never meant to live a life like this or never will. I have to live my own life and I will make my own dimensions of living it. I, Abdullah at this very moment 20/12/2018 9.25 p.m. (Pakistan Time) is quitting this materialistic race because I have decided to live in the moments, and after all want to have a stress free life.

 

 

I am extremely Thank you to everyone who read out my blog. I am also apologetic to people who found it depressing :D. I literally had no intention of it as I just wanted to speak my heart out. Please do like, share and most importantly comment to let me know what you think about it. Happy reading 🙂

 

 

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19 thoughts on “Moving On

  1. Loved this very much and I couldn’t agree more that this education system of ours conforms who we are. Even though some will argue that conformity is central to the functioning of our society🤷🏾‍♀️ lol

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    1. Exactly 😀 …Thanks for reading btw. Be well !!

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  2. I can relate to this

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  3. Nice the chase and race is over

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  4. Living in the moment and living a stress-free life is very important! Materialistic things come and go. I’m really proud of you for making this decision.

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  5. Angel Trujillo 6 Jan 2019 — 1:24 am

    It is important to speak your heart out, and I’m glad you did so! Many of us feel trapped by our surroundings due to the fact that we may be judged. Your life can only be dependent by you, and in order to obtain your life goals, you must break the boundaries and be different from the others. I wish much success for you in the future! Great post! 🙂

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  6. Overthinking has it’s difficulties, which society teaches us. I think not taking ourselves too seriously, getting out for social functions (even if it’s grueling at first), listening to others without the need to comment, and taking part in physical exercise and hands-one activities that are not intellectual in main can help. Also, when watching movies, picking ones that aren’t overly intellectual.

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    1. Thank you for sharing the way out. This is really helpful.

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  7. First of all… it’s happy to see as a teenager, you know better about our society and want to live for your own self than racing with them. As you are growing and getting matured through this teenage group, may Allah guide you to a happy life through the right path. Never mind this society, when you deserve to live YOUR LIFE with good intention. ALL THE BEST.

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    1. JazakAllah Dear means alot to me.

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  8. The difficulty in thinking for yourself is sometimes the sense of being alone. But that’s when your faith is tested, when you show a strong understanding that doesn’t waver over time. It’s difficult. I’ve always encouraged others to think for themselves. Especially since we live in America, land of freedom. A country filled with people who think for themselves, listen to others yes, but resolve by what they understand inside, is what leads to discussions, debates, dialogue, and answers.

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  9. Yeah I totally agree. Thanks for reading it out. Be well!

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  10. Okay so it’s been a little while since you posted this how has this been working for you

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    1. It’s made my life fairly simple. But as you know declarative statements are not sufficient enough for this, you have to become a tide to surpass what others judge based on their knowledge. After all I have to live my own life and this is the reality. Thanks for reading btw … Have a joyous Life!!

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      1. I am living in joyous life for sure

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  11. Expression is healing. Feelings buried alive never die…

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  12. Nope it was not depressing but it was motivational surely for those who can’t move on from their thoughts.
    I surely relate with your post.
    I have seen it but late but this is amazing 😊😊😊😊😊

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